why do i allow myself to be bored ever in the past and to compensate for it got high or drunk or rages or all the tricks people have because they want but serene understanding of just what there is... which is after all so much
and thinking like angry social deals, like angry kicks, like hassling over social problems,
it meant so little..
i could feel that great confidence and gold of the morning would slip away eventually and had already started
i could have made my whole life like that morning just on the strength of pure understanding and willingness to live and go along.
-jack kerouac